Hehehehe! Look Jenna, I got rid of the extra post, all by myself!!! Yay for Aylah!
Okay, so this lady comes into the shop the other day and after complimenting me on how awesome my shop is becoming and what awesome energy there is here, she asks, "Have you ever read the book "Evolutionary Witchcraft" by T Thorn Coil?'" I said no, but that my friend in Portland had suggested that I read it too. So I asked her, "What is it about this book, why do you think I should read it?" She said, "Because you are leaking power." That got me to thinking, and the mental picture I came up with was a burlap sack that had holes in it everywhere. No the bag is totally full of light but it is also streaming through the wholes as well. So it's like it is completely full and completely leaking at the same time. So I brought this subject up to Jenna (who is ONE of my most Magical friends,) and she said, "Okay, but I don't believe we ever run out of light, regardless of how we leak." I agree, I know that I will never be even so much as a quarter empty, I will always be made of, and full of, Light. But if this is true, why did I still feel like there was something to the "leaking" thing. So the next morning at breakfast I brought the subject up to William (who is another ONE of the most Magical people I know,) He just looked at me in his usual cool, calm manner and said, "Jenna is right, you will never be empty. But if you stop the leaking of power, when you do, deliberately open the bag, the light will be focused and will shine directly on what you put it on, it's a matter of focus." (Geeze my friends are brilliant!) So, I am going to buy the book. I logged onto her web page this morning out of curiosity, she is a total babe! But...her teachings are centered around the Fae tradition of the Andersons, I'm not so crazy about that tradition of, well...it's wicca I guess. They are little like Gardner and company, there is a definite emphasis on sex. Now, please don't write to me, blasting me for my criticism, I am after all entitled to my own opinion, and I too have come to some interesting conclusions about the sex thing as well. I will buy the book and I will read it, and I will read it with an open mind.
So, the sex thing. Okay since the store has manifested I have learned to very important things Magically speaking. First I have learned that in the realm of Magic, and the act of creating a Magical life, that there is absolutely NO difference in the physical and the spiritual and that the sex act is symbolic of the creation of a Magical life, or the creation of anything for that matter. Now I can just imagine what my coven friends are thinking who are reading this, no, I have not lost my marbles. I just think there is something to the sex aspect of Magic. I think maybe it is more important than any of us want to give credit for, because Gardner and Crowley and some others put an emphasis on the sex, for the sex sake, not for the sake of Magic. To some of us, they perverted the whole thing. The focus has to be on the Magic, on the outcome of the Magical goal, which means - in order for this awareness to be Magically effective there has to be some knowledge and some Magical understanding - 1)The focus really can't be primarily on the sex, it has to be on the goal. Which means 2) We need to choose our partners very carefully. They need to be people with which we respect Magically, who have Magical goals of their own and with whom we share a mutual trust, and then 3) The Magical sex act needs to be gentle and loving (Crowley liked to mix a little BDSM with his.) So that is the first Magical awareness that I have come to. Many of you might be thinking, "Well, duh Aylah, this is just Basic Sex Magic101." But you have to understand were I am coming from, because of the Magical examples in the past from some of the more infamous coven leaders, some examples I have seen locally, and my own behavior - I rejected any valid thought of Sex Magic. I would not even consider it. I still will not consider it in a group setting, but it is good for me to have worked this out for myself - to come to my own understanding.
The second Magical awareness I have arrived at just recently - our desires are their desires. Yes, I know, this is basic as well. But, have you ever read something a million times and on the million and one time, it clicks. I read "Ask and It is Given" by Abraham-Hicks. Esther Hicks is this channel who channels a group of entities who call themselves Abraham. I was profoundly affected by this book. Basically the just is that by having desires, and then setting out Magically to obtain those goals, and then obtaining those goals, causes us to have joy, which in turn feeds the gods. They get fed by our joy, and joy comes mostly by the obtaining of our goals. Okay, I got it, this was an easy book to understand and read, but here again you have to understand what I am coming out of - the male-dominate, monotheistic, tyrannical religion that says I will "receive" what I "ask"
for, only when and if "God" deems me "worthy." Yes I know it's a very sad place I came out of, a place of judging where I can only be given what I want from God if I am good enough, or if my goal is worthy of His Purpose. Okay, So I just made the absolute realization, into the fibers of my being, that my desires are their desires and that the only way they might not be, is if my desires were doing to directly negatively impact someone. All I want is everything - I only want it all. But my desire hurt no one. We create our reality, the gods guide us in the creation of that reality only when we ask and absolutely with out judgment. We are the masters of our own life and they are our allies - getting on our back sides and covering us:) WOW! I knew this, but at the eleventh hour, now I have my existence fixed around it.
William, David, Joseph, Rebecca, Quillian and Madaline you are covered in a bubble of white Light, wrapped in the loving, protective arms of the Mother, covered in reflectors that bounce back negativity to it's sender - no darkness can penetrate your shields on this realm or any other. Your gods and goddesses, angels, faeries, dragons and guides encircle you, loving you and protecting you. You are invisible to those who do not need to see you and visible to those who do. You are rich beyond your wildest imagination, made so by your every endeavor. You are surrounded by people who love and adore you. You are protected from accident, illness, or incident. You are loved, and wrapped, and healed, and protected, by power, strength, courage, and might.
It Is So!
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